Evolution

You may remember my post, titled 'Big Girl', where I was complaining about a recent decision, and the rejection that ensued. Well, I think I've realised what my problem was.

You see, I have never really allowed myself to feel anything but a slight warming to a human of the male variety. That warming was usually displayed in manners of the flesh, and all emotion was void. This time, however, I somehow managed to allow that affection to surface - and it shocked the shit out of me, and sent me into a spiral of crap that has only recently blown over.

So, that much we know - now moving forward, I have learnt that I really should just be congratulating myself on a job well done. I now know that I am capable of feeling something more than the physical side of men, and I will use this power to venture onwards into what will hopefully be a happy, and not completely single, life.

I feel grateful for the person in mind, for allowing me the opportunity to utilise my feelings, and now I'm happy for the relationship to evolve. The decision has been made, the relationship has evolved, and after pushing all things sexual to the side, maybe it will turn into something better than it was - a friendship.

This may seem a bit deep; it doesn't happen too often on this blog; but I feel that I've now become a better person. (In a purely selfish way, of course.)