Do you ever get the feeling that you're censoring yourself? The multitude of thoughts that go through a person's head every day rarely get verbalised. My question is, how much of it should be?
There are currently a few things that have been sitting around in my head for months, and I just refuse to allow them to come out. Verbalising them involves the act of telling them to someone else, and I think it's the reaction of that person that is stopping me. Now, really I have no idea what their reaction is going to be, but I'm afraid that maybe I DO know and because this supposed reaction is not favourable, I'm afraid to verbalise my thoughts.
Why can't I just forget about it, and move on to other thoughts? Good question... I don't know why. I've tried my hardest to forget the shit, and have distracted myself with other Muse's and other trains of thought, but it just doesn't make any difference. I think that if I don't just say it, I will explode. And I'd hate for my colleagues to be covered in a big mess of gooey Bazza all over the place. That's not pleasant, and not very friendly. So, for the good of humanity, I should just talk talk talk away.
After reading this through, I've realised that I am potentially over-reacting. What I have been thinking about isn't really that important; it doesn't affect anybody that much; it is merely a realisation of something. Very boring - not worthy of a blog post - but I had to get it out.
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